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Being Alone
03:28
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i was just trying to make conversation
the awkwardness was sinking in
now i'm regretting my actions
it's a waste of my breath
stuck in my head
i'm seeing myself a lot
nothing lasts though
i'll see you when i'm back
so i'll go for a walk and kick the dirt
thinking of what i could've said
i couldn't say a thing, and now i'm nothing
i'm nothing without what you said to me
now you're gone and you've left me in two or three
weeks i'll be fine, i just need to find some time to think
would you ever regret talking to me?
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Being at Home
03:09
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i want to see you alone in your room
doing the things that no one knows you do
i get distracted, that's true but i feel like i'm never really getting over you
no secrets, except a few
i'm feeling a little bit confused
do you want me to talk to you?
or should i just move on?
winter's almost gone
there's nothing else i want to do
than to be with you
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Thurston. - As Clearly
03:11
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i just thought i'd see you more
i figured you might miss me back
but i heard you talking the other night
you said you started missing him again
i just thought you'd see me more
start thinking what it'd be like
and maybe you'd think of me
start feeling the same things at night
and maybe you'd ask me "what'd you do today?"
and maybe i'd catch you on the front porch like always
messy hair and singing soft to the garden
smile when you see me
'cause when i wake up, i sing to you
but you're not here, so what's the use?
now you're alone and you tell me you didn't hold on tight enough
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i put on your cd
i couldn't shake the feeling of regret
and now my eyes are sinking into my face
i'm getting overwhelmed
it's a joke i'm telling all wrong (that i'm not telling right)
it's my middle school fears, it's the first time i had to walk home
i imagine you without your glasses
it's strange how so quickly the way i see you can change
my vision starts to blur
i'm seeing you and it's for the first time
but i'm too dependent on these feelings
and i can't refuse to make a change
stop pretending that you don't see them
i'm too quick to blame my edge
in the rearview mirror, you hold a smile and i feel brave (i feel strong)
i'm feeling like myself
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at two a.m. i'm staring out my window
how did this semester go so fast?
it's not that i regret the past four months
i'm just more focused on the shadows that it cast
but i learned something this year that won't leave with december
it's a growing change you feel, not something you remember
so tell me what it's like to live a life behind those iron bars that have made your heart so tender
at two a.m. i'm staring out my window
how did this semester go so fast?
it's not that i regret the past four months
i'm just more focused on the shadows that it cast
our bodies took the shapes of cold ice sculptures
motionless, we left no trail behind
now that i've figured directions, it's time for me to figure out my mind
but i've thought it through
i lost my sense of self when i met you
maybe it wasn't there from the start, but i'd like to pretend
that in my chest there beats an honest heart
where were you when all i was a friend or something i knew i could trust
miles away, i'll crawl into my tent
i'll fall asleep, forgetting about us
you were in between of what i need and what i want
so i'll go grab my acoustic and just for an afternoon, we'll laugh at the sun
we can talk for hours, bring a movie back to my house that we haven't seen
feel like i am chained down to this couch, it's about time i came clean
the running rivers in your veins won't wash away or drown your ugly past
the tributaries flow out through the skin and they flow fast
it's about you, it's about my insides trembling at the thought of being pleasantly happy
i thought i kicked this thing a couple years ago in high school, but it seems that it came back for me
this darkness feeds on grief
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it's really with me now 'til i move overseas
and chase the memory of home away in the sea breeze
somewhere deep inside, an old friends wants to speak
i listen 'cause i have no other company to keep
but we gently slurred and spoke of something more
than a heart blackened by the world we never saw
and days when i walk alone, i wonder where you are
i never seem to know
i imagine that you're back in our hometown, or in europe somewhere
reading 'til you fall asleep
it won't be me that's in your dreams and i'm okay with that
because i am on every page you read
and i know you think i'm still a nervous wreck, it was just a bad year
and it won't be long until
we're hanging like old times, we'll sit on my porch while we deem everything to be so different now
a cold suburban road gets lonelier you know
when you let the radio decide where you're gonna' go
and next year when i'm gone, i'll try to find some time to appreciate myself and focus on the good in life
i imagine that you're back in our hometown, or in europe somewhere
reading 'til you fall asleep
maybe london, maybe france, i don't know who to ask
or what to do with all the plans i had for us
and i know you think i'm still a nervous wreck, it was just a bad year
and it won't be long until
a certain someone shakes a certain self-defeating place of solitude they've somehow found themselves in
don't lie to me and say you won't allow yourself to feel those honest feelings now
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8. |
Twin Lakes - Meursault
06:55
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i could see you in a casket
and i don't believe you when you say "i'm not afraid", 'cause i'm afraid
and i think about it everyday
we push it down and throw it out
distract ourselves with drugs and doubt
convinced its fine, it's off our minds
assure ourselves its not our time
our world is a prison, but i'm happy where i am
i'm missing out on nothing
when nothing matters anyway
accepting and realizing the inevitability is meaningless
it's the problem, it's so hard
[excerpt from The Stranger by Albert Camus]
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